explanation that fits

Well, thanks to my buddy Tami and the wonderful tool Google, I have some peace of mind about the pain I'm experiencing. I've been having horrible cramps, but not really cramps. It's like a burning stretching pain that takes my breath away and leaves me incapable of doing anything. I thought for sure something was wrong (and technically something could be wrong, but no sense worrying until I get back into the country and see the doctor). But, then Tami mentioned round ligament pain, so I looked it up, and for the most part it seems to fit. I discovered that when I do much walking, or moving, the pain is horrendous the next day. So on my lovely Bermuda vacation I've been confined mainly to the bed.

I also discovered last night that I can't lay on my right side. Not if I don't want to end up screaming in agony. Left side is okay, but back is the safest bet. The only thing that doesn't fit is the fact that I have burning whenever I need to pee. Not burning when I actually go...just burning in my lower abdomen when I have to go. And at immediate care they tested for a UTI and it was negative. No sign of infection at alll. So that's still a mystery. But at least now I have something that seems to fit, and isn't detrimental to me or the bean. I had been thinking ectopic pregnancy, but there's never been any bleeding. It sucks in a way, because if it is this, there's nothing I can do to make it go away, except inactivity. Ugh.

But, I'm going to atttempt the beach today. It's our last full day here, and I don't want to spend it in bed. Secretly I'm a bit happy to go home though. I feel bad having to request foods that they don't have, being the odd one out. Soup and crackers are my friends. :) The nausea is starting to come, but it hasn't' been horrendous yet. Just this nagging sensation, like I've been on a ship that's going through little swells. And I'm soooo hungry when I wake up! I've got a stash of really bland cookies by the bed, and the first thing I do is munch on a couple. It's a bit of a dilemma, because the thought of most foods isn't appealing, even sweets. But yet I get super hungry so I know I have to eat something. That's why I'm looking forward to being at home, where I can buy all the weird food I want and not worry about inconveniencing anyone!

Whew, this was longer than expected, but I figured someone would be curious about what I'm feeling at this stage of the game. I think my body missed the memo that I'm not supposed to get a belly until the 2nd trimester. Man is it sticking out...guess I'm retaining mucho water. I feel like a blimp already. hahaha. Oh well. I'd drink more water but I hate the burning I get when I have to go. It's a bad cycle. Okay, gotta go suit up. OH! One more bad thing....seems I can't drink coffee!! When I try to drink it...the cramps come on almost immediately! So....for the first time in...oh I don't know, 22 years or so, I won't be having coffee each morning. Tylenol will help keep the headaches away, but I'm gonna miss it. As soon as this stupid pain goes away, I'm jumping back on the coffee wagon. :)

Adios for now!