comfortably numb...

Well, I was supposed to have my preconception appointment on Monday, but a couple things went wrong. One, the girl who scheduled the appointment didn't do it right. I needed to be booked for a full physical with bloodwork, and she only blocked me in for a 15 minutes consultation. Two, the doctor was insanely busy because all the assistants called out. So I really only got like 5 minutes. We did have time to talk about me going off paxil, but because I told her I feel completely not in control of my life and unable to do anything, she said I needed to be on prozac. Apparently it's one of the safest anti-depressants to be on while pregnant. She also prescribed a folate vitamin, detrin? She said take that for a month and then I should be able to switch to an over-the-counter version.

So today I took a paxil AND a prozac (while I get weened off the paxil) and I feel a bit zombie-ish. And insanely tired. In fact, after I post this I'm going to bed. It's ten after 8. Ugh. I looked at some sites, and I just don't know if I want to be on prozac when I get pregnant. I know I'm overwhelmed right now with things, but I don't think I'm in such a bad situation mentally that I'll need to stay on it. Prozac can cause pre-term birth and withdrawal for the baby. That sucks. So, when I go back for my real physical next month, I'm going to tell her I want to be off prozac by February.

Ugh. So that's that. I was hoping for a more interesting appointment. Oh! And then, I tried to schedule genetic testing to see if I'm a CF carrier. Boy do they make that hard! This one place had me call University of MD in baltimore, for their genetic counseling, and I'd have to meet with a counselor and blah blah blah. I left a message but they didn't call back. Then I called my OB/GYN and left a message. My doctor calls me today and is like, "so what's the deal, you just want blood work to screen for this genetic disease?" And I'm like yeah. She says "well if you're partner doesn't have a family history of CF, then you're most likely okay. I would just wait until you're pregnant, because otherwise it's gonna cost you $400 per person." Ewww. So, I guess we're going to play Russian Roulette. They test for CF anyway, so what will be will be. Once I'm pregnant, there's no going back. Not once they exist. It would be like Linda saying she wishes she'd never had Sarah. And I was hoping to avoid that possibility. But, I think I'm just being too paranoid. The chances are good that Derek isn't a carrier.

Okay, I think that's all. I may or may not have more to write before my next appointment. Otherwise, updates to come next month.

halloween and baby

Hola blogger world, so last night we went to Stephen & Lisa's for a halloween get-together. Super fun even with the small gathering. I didn't fall behind the couch, but I did get quite toasted. Good thing there's no babies in there yet. hehehe. I got to pat Lisa's baby bump, hehehe. Softer than I thought, although she did have on a soft costume so that might have contributed to the feeling.

So we got home around....1:30 a.m., got settled and in bed by around 2. Then my alarm went off at 7 a.m. and I had to get up for the "Making Strides against Breast Cancer" 4 mile walk. That was with Jen & Greg. I didn't realize how much I'd had to drink...but I felt pretty crappy. Had some dry toast and milk, was still wearing last nights' makeup (which goes to show that I got so little sleep it didn't have time to rub off), and had a very mix-matched outfit. hehehe. And luckily I was awake enough to feed the dog and take her out, since Derek said he didn't get up until 9:30. So I left at 7:30 with a mild hangover. But once we got there and started walking, it was great. There were SOOO many people there. And after 4+ miles, I felt great! Okay so here's a random baby that Jen and I thought was really cute:

Sleepy happy baby. Okay now prepare yourselves for one of the cutest baby pictures in the world. Derek's best buddy from Bermuda, Jack, has a baby with his wife Susan. Her name is Helena. They live in Bermuda (funny too, because Susan is from America, but instead of Jack moving here, she moved there. I think I got the short end of the stick!) and so baby Helena gets to play in Bermuda water when she wants.

This just seems like it should be a famous shot. It's couture-worthy. It could sell Bermuda vacations. Well, even more so than just Bermuda in general.

Okay I think that's all for now. Oh oh oh! I have my doctor's appointment tomorrow. Yey! So a full report will be coming soon. Oh but I have my midterm due this week, along with a group project and other homework so it might not be tomorrow. I'll be keeping you on the edge of your seats. :)